Confusion

Well, we finally received an email back from the Dr. in India. For some reason, things were just not adding up for this trip to Anand. Some of my surro-buddies have been clueing me in to what it is really like there and some issues that made us a little leary. Believe me, we did our research, spoke to references, and emailed a ton, but lately things have just been turning in my head. We are contemplating going with a different clinic and doctors. We have heard so many positive reactions about this facility and staff, that it is almost a no-brainer. The only draw back that we can find is it is a little more expensive. I will also have to get my own IVF meds. I don't think that will be much of a challenge. The one very big positive about that is I can start my meds here and fly to India in the middle of my cycle. This would mean less time in India. We have a lot to think about right now. Unfortunately, we don't have too much time. We don't want to miss the chance of a June cycle. It's times like this that I wonder why these things happened to me from the beginning. It would be so much easier if I could just get pregnant on my own... but life's not perfect. We have to take the good and the bad. (Enter sappy moment here.)

On the other hand, Stephen had a great weekend. We played outside almost all weekend because the weather was simply gorgeous here. He already has a skinned knee and a bit of a tan. He loves to push his little lawn mower and take "Buppy" for a walk around the neighborhood. We went to one of our favorite parks this weekend. We met some of my mommy group friends there and Stephen saw some of his little friends. He had such a great time and learned how to go down the slide.

Last week, I felt very crafty. I made a seat cushion for our "mud area." This is really just a three foot wide cut out of the wall with two hooks, a shelf, and a bench. Well, I went to the craft store, bought foam, batting, fabric, and wood. And.... there you have it, a beautiful cushion. Stephen likes to try to lay on it (with our help). Then... Stephen and I decided to bake an apple pie. I know.... I was baking. He loved it. He stood on a stool right next to me for an hour or so and mixed ingredients and ate apples. He loved cooking with me and now always wants to be in the kitchen when we are making anything from chocolate milk to chicken cutlets.

Here's another picture of Stephen. We were getting ready for church and he kept running away from me. I couldn't get him to sit still to put his shirt on. Yes, he is still super skinny, and yes, Aunt Cathy, we are feeding him. hehe. He must have some of those Schreck genes ;)

Next Step... India... here we come!

It has been awhile since we have had any new news about India. Well, not a lot of news, but I am awaiting an email back from Dr. Patel to tell us what our next steps are. She told us to contact her in March, and of course... I was counting down the minutes. Stephen and I are both ready to start this journey. We are enjoying watching Stevie grow up, but we want to give him a sibling (or two). We are planning on going to Anand this June. We have made arrangements for Stevie to stay here in the US with our family. We did not want to bring him on a trip like this, but we will miss him dearly. Three weeks away from our little munchkin is incomprehensible right now.

With that being said, here is the update on Stevie. He is 22 months old. I can't believe how fast he has grown. This second year went much faster than the first. He is speaking in sentences now with 3-4 words or more. He has become very demanding and good at throwing tempers. Stephen says he is stubborn, like me, but I don't see it. Haha. We actually had some real deal snow today. We got about 3-4 inches. He loved playing in the snow. We took out his Tonka trucks and let him drive them around the backyard. He is asleep now, this is our second attempt at a nap. We are cutting him back to one nap a day, but it doesn't always work. Earlier this morning, I went through all his baby clothes and started organizing them. We decided to save all clothes for his siblings. It wasn't until recently though that I have had the strength to go through them.

Stephen and I have been through more in our 3 years of marriage than I ever want anyone to go through. He has stayed true to our vow of "sickness and health." It seems like half our marriage has been getting through my "sickness" so to speak. I don't know how I would have ever gotten through this without him. I have had 3 surgeries and many other "office procedures" that he has stood by my side. It still makes me cry everytime I think of what he has gone through. We don't dwell on the negatives as much as we used to. But, we are human and every so often, we have our down moments. We never thought that we would be going to India to have our next baby, but hey, we are ready for the ride!!