Almost 4

Labor is going slowwwwwwwwww. She is almost 4. Water has been broken, but not much mor progress yet. Poor thing!

3 and Counting

BM is dilated to 3 cm already. She is on a pitocin drip and has the epidural in place. We are in a separate room and just found out that we get to spend the night!! Woooohooo! We were not aware of that earlier. Please check back here for updates throughout the day. Thanks for all the emails, texts, bbms, and messages on FB today. It is wonderful to feel soooo loved!

So Close...

Today is the day! Our BM is going to be admitted at 6am and we will arrive shortly after to pace the halls and keep her company. We had a fabulous lunch with her and her mom today. They told us a lot of their family history and funny stories we can share with our child when the time is right. After that, we spent the evening at he pool. We both got workouts in and are getting ready to try to sleep. I will update ASAP, I promise!!

Quickie Update

No big news yet, still planning on flying to Arizona on Sunday unless our little peanut decides to come earlier. Unlike surrogacy, you are less privy to information about the pregnancy and doctor reports. We are still waiting for an update from Tuesday's appointment, maybe we will get it tomorrow. However, we remain in good spirits and continue to surround ourselves with positive people.

Just want to say a big THANKS to all my loyal friends leaving comments. I was a little nervous how our news would be received in the surro community, but you guys never fail or cease to amaze. I wish you all the best of luck on your journeys, wherever they may lead you.

I will continue to update as I receive the information. We are excited about going to AZ, as I have been there once previously, but hubby has not. And the best part of all is... we get to meet Rhonda and her family! We have been friends and supporters of each other for a long, long time now. It is just wonderful that they live in the general area that we will be staying in. Talk about a small world.

Off to bed, dreams of baby days again! :)

We've Been Keeping a Secret ;)

Yes, we have been keeping a very, very big secret. We are ready to share because we are about to burst! We were matched with a birth mother (or expectant mother) a week after we received our completed home study. That was April 20th. It was the craziest day!!! My dad had just come into town to visit, Stephen's parents were here to have dinner with us and we were secretly completing paperwork and sending off our profile to be viewed by a birth mom. It all happened within 36 hours. Talk about craziness. It happened so fast, that we were scared it was too fast.

But, as the next few weeks turned into months, here we are, about WEEK away from a scheduled induction! We are so happy to share this news with our family and friends. Our birth mom will be induced on the 21st if she does not go into labor sooner. We will be flying to AZ next weekend or earlier.

We are on cloud nine, for months now. It is such a nice feeling to let our hearts open up to these emotions again. Please continue to pray for us and for our birth mom to continue with her adoption plan. Stay tuned! Exciting things are happening for us!!!!

Hey All!!

Ok, ok, I have neglected my blog long enough. I've had two friends in the past two days email me and say "Update please!!" So, here it is...

After many days and weeks of considering our next move, we have decided to step away from surrogacy for a while. The emotions were just getting to be too much. We would receive a positive phone call and then with in the next few days/weeks, we would get the "I'm sorry" call. No one's fault, but just getting harder to swallow each time.

So, we thought and thought and have decided to move onto adoption. We would love another biological child, but more than that, we want a sibling for our son. We are going to adopt a newborn and then in a year or so, try to unfreeze our leftover embryos and give them a whirl.

I hope you all understand where we are coming from and can support us still the same. It has been years of crazy emotions, ups and downs. When we decided to adopt, we felt a big sigh of relief for some reason. I will continue to update as we walk down this journey, but for now, I'm setting up our house and painting.

Best wishes to all and thanks for reading!

PS- Max did make it back to our house a few days later :)

Bad Day

I can't wait for this day to be over. It started with a phone call that we lost our pregnancy and got worse from there. There seems to be no rhyme or reason as to why we keep losing our pregnancies, but I'm at the point where I am almost numb to it. How sad! :(

Then, the Directv guy is here installing our tv service all day and our cat, Max, escapes. We have searched the neighborhood and left food out. He has not come home.

Can't wait for this friggin day to be over!